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Friday, February 05, 2010

dead

<3 12:25 AM

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

Probably im just being stupid and all.. but i worry.. i really do.. even though i dont think much about it.. i really want your attention sometimes..especially just now when i was there at yishun.. i really hoped you'd appear and drag me to join u. but you didn't.. i wont blame you cuz i told you not to bother about me..

i know you want to send me home.. but i'm just worried about you.. i hate doing this.. its like experiencing the same old troubles again.. bringing me back into time.. it turned sour the last time.. and i hated it.. never want it to happen again.. but sadly it did.. i guess i'm just not good enough eh. =(

<3 11:03 PM

Saturday, September 29, 2007

Exams are coming.. and i guess im just going into a cranky mood.. burden is getting heavier.. so am i.. ahah.. i guess that joke gone wrong made me feel worst.. and especially so when i hear you tell others the things we share close.. maybe im too sensitive, maybe im too demanding. but i think its time i be a little selfish.. because i dont do or say what i say privately to you to others.. so yea..

anyway... 1215225 21 19891812525 =D

<3 1:07 AM

Friday, September 21, 2007

i dont know what im doing .. am i wrong to compare? am i wrong to demand appreciation? its hard even for me.. i know it'll affect you as well.. but i still had to read it.. im sensitive.. very sensitive... feel like shit now.. don't know how to face you.. just hope i can die now.. having you locked in my head now is he best thing..

<3 1:53 AM

Sunday, September 16, 2007

erIt seems like i'm broke again.. haha this time i'm surviving solely on my savings! luckily i started saving a few months ago.. if not for the 90 bucks 2nd hand bag i bought and the 50 bucks i lent my friend.. i think i'd be able to last another month.. haha.. but it seems that i have erm...enough left in my account to last me for 2 weeks.. haha provided i get back the 50 bucks..

i'm in a delima.. should i pay 30 bucks for a present thats shared by 3 (so prezzie is 90) or should i pass.. haha a shirt! omg.. what shirt costs 90 bucks?? i spend less than $30 in the past 2 years (this year and last) for clothes.. and whoa.. im asked to spend 30 on 1/3 of a shirt.. lol.. such bad timing.. just when im pure broke..

if i told you i dont mind.. im lying.. but at the same time i dont want all of you to spend so much even thou you say its just once a year.. haha nevermind bout that.. we still have 3 weeks till our promos.. argh.. and i havent touched my first 6 month subjects.. sian.. i'd better buck up!!



Darius Danesh - Colour Blind

Feelin' blue, while I'm trying to forget the feeling that I miss you
Feelin' green, when the jealousy swells and it won't go away in dreams

Feelin' yellow, I'm confused inside
A little hazy but mellow when I feel your eyes on me

Feelin' fine! Sublime!
When that smile of yours creeps into my mind

Oh oh

Nobody told me you'd feel so good
Nobody said you'd be so beautiful
Nobody warned me about your smile
You're the light, you're the light
When I close my eyes
I'm colour blind

You make me colour blind

Feelin' red, when you spend all your time with your friends and not me instead
Feelin' black, when I think about all the things that I feel I lack

Feelin' jaded, when it's not gone right
All the colours have faded, then I feel your eyes on me

Feelin' fine! Sublime!
When that smile of yours creeps into my mind

Mm mm

Nobody told me you'd feel so good
Nobody said you'd be so beautiful
Nobody warned me about your smile
You're the light, you're the light
When I close my eyes
I'm colour blind

You make me colour blind

Blinded by the light you shine, the colours fade completely
Blinded by you every time, I feel your smile defeat me

I'm colour blind
I just can't deny this feeling

Nobody told me you'd feel so good
Nobody said you'd be so beautiful
Nobody warned me about your smile
You're the light, you're the light
When I close my eyes
I'm colour blind

Nobody told me you'd feel so good
Nobody said you'd be so beautiful
Nobody warned me about your
the light, you're the light
When I close my eyes
I'm colour blind

You make me colour blind

I'm colour blind

You say im not being selfish enough.. but i'm just afraid that you'd get angry if i am.. haha.. its ok..i don't know if i'm just being stupid or its my nature.. haha anyway.. i want you to know that i love you..and please bear with me for the moment..maybe i'd be different in the future =D <3

<3 9:20 PM

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

today was quite ok cuz i wasn't feeling so sleepy, after lessons i went to library to study, den jasmine need help so i accompanied her , walked her home and went home.. =(.. please dont hate me.. please dont be angry with me.. i'd listen to you the next time .. i promise..


I have been so persistent because i care
am i going too far? doing too much?
Sorry but i'm utterly dissapointed in myself.
Sending you home was cuz i'm worried,
having you being mad at me wasn't my plan,
its because i'm the present and not the past.
Reminding me of past self was not so nice,
lonely and afraid i would be,
even if you were angry with me, i'd be there,
yes i will =)

<3 12:38 AM

Thursday, September 06, 2007

have been a hectic week for me somehow.. have been staying out for 2 nights now .. i mean.. not consecutively but on monday and last night..

monday ..i went to visit shirley's grandmother with her.. it seems that she's suffering from lukemia.. went cityhall to look for samual afterwards with jas and JM.. while she met up with her favourite ice cream ,BEN & jerry's. pris joined us but stayed alone..

went to Phoon's house after that .. thats when albert came up with that stupid game we always play.. hmm.. since we don't have an official name for it. i'll name it MIX!!

right.. as i was saying, he decided to play that ... with milo, coke, peach tea, milo powder, coffee bags and lipton tea bags.. i was kinda gross to actually see that mixture but despite it being repulsive at first sight.. i actually tasted quite nice haha

so the game begins, we have to play dai ti (big 2).. whoever lost had to drink either 2 cups of plain water of a cup or a cup of sugared drink.. but in the end we changed it to MIX!! i was lucky!! didn't lose a singe round lol

after that KT went watching ratta-someting.. that didnt seem too interesting so i didnt watch it.. slept in freaking cold conditions.. crazy.. at 3+ still.. woke up at 6+ to go school for rugby.. damn late nights are making me have this perpetual feeling of wanting to puke. urgh..

wednesday.... chem lessons.. gp lessons.. where we had to do comphre and essay.. the essay drained me dry and left me nothing for the comphre.. crap.. THANKS MRS LIOU for the pizzas and drumlets esp from me cuz i ate something equivalent to one large pizza =0..

went out with the cambodia people and her to celebrate wei qins birthday though its next wednesday lol.. after that i sent shirley home.. since it was too late i stayed thru till today =).. thanks shirley! damn your stupid dog.. ahah kaypo..

You're an angel from above,
the prettiest one that i've known.
Best day i had,
i will cherish it always.
Ever so sweet and caring,
had to be you.

<3 8:18 PM