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Thursday, June 21, 2007

Its been a long time since i've blogged.. not that many people are reading this.. but it just reminds me of how lazy i am blah blah blah..

oh yea.. last saturday 16 june.. i went for this famine camp which i signed up together with the OCIP trip , it was a 30 hour fasting camp.. didn't think of it much .. maybe just the thought of starving 30 hours plus some meditation.. to tell you the truth, i thought the camp was gonna be boring.

i mean.. what else can we do while starving(not that they would ask us to run a full marathon) ? what i thought then was that they would ask us to be like some shaolin monk, with a whole mass of famine campers doing some mass meditation in a MPH(muti-purpose hall) sort of thing..

i was wrong..

what started out to be a good day went out really wrong.. some people (>1) who were supposed to meet me (or rather meet up.. including me) were late.. for those who know me better knows that CHING WAI DEK ABSOLUTELY HATES PEOPLE WHO ARE LATE.. thats cuz i'd usually be early , if not i'd inform that i'd be late.. sad.. girls.. haiz

but then again we made it in the nick of time .. well.. late by awhile thanks to auntie's speeding technique.. absolute tourqe VrooooOOMM

that camp was fun.. it turned out that they had more fun programmes planned out for us; lectures, games, some kid named Ly Long from cambodia sharing his experience with his mum for the first day.. that game was pretty fun. lots of exercise.

second day was allocated for the newspaper collection .. which was tiring to some extent.. considering the fact that we did not consume solid food for around 20 hours now.. that lead to fatigue but we managed thru..

really.. 30 hours is nothing.. piece of cake.. chicken feet.. for only 30 hours .. thats because we're only enduring 30 hours.. not 300 hours..i'd put it in a senario where i sleep for 30 hours without food.. the truth is,30 hours passes very fast..i we would have done twice that amount it might be a little difficult..

anyway, we would get hungry every now and then.. but after awhile the feeling would go away.. but for me.. its not the being hungry part that is hard.. its the part of resisting food that is hard... luckily for me there wasn't any obvious available food source around me that tempted me..

ironically they provided us with 'sugared' water(yeos packet drinks) for our meals.. kinda defeated the purpose of a famine camp huh. they should just let us have plain water luh..

and finally when the 30 hours were up, we were offered burger king burgers.. for a person who didn't eat a thing for 30 hours.. you'd expect to see him lunge at the food presented.. but surprisingly i wasn't hungry.. infact one burger was enough to shut me up for the whole night.. i was stuffed.. but the kia su side of me decided to look for more free burgers.. and in the end i ate 3 of em.. felt like dying .. and apparently i ate more after that.. a can of corned beef, big packet of chips, chicken chop(a little.. shared with a friend) , ba zhang and a slice of bread(it went with the corned beef) .. it was then i realised that the stuff i just ate was very hi in salt content.. i'm doomed.. hopefully i dont develope kidney stones..

yea yea.. long post.. so what..

apparently i did something stupid a few days ago.. felt like stabbing myself.. what was i thinking telling you the truth.. in this way?? that must suck..i feel stupid.. and now im sick.. having a flu and it doesn't help at all..infact having two impact hitting me in a day was devastating.. but what ever the case a.. i still shiter u..

<3 11:12 PM

Saturday, June 02, 2007

BACK! - 5th day

Well.. as most of you people out there reading this.. this is the 5th day that i have been back.. erm... at the back of my head there's this really really reallllly naggy feeling that if i had a choice.. i'd give up everything i have in singapore and stay in cambodia..

For the past few nights, i couldn't really sleep well.. i just missed the stuffy nights in cambodia with the team..thats not all thats keeping me awake.. but rather the people and the enviroment over at the other side..

Although i didn't get to visit places outside the village of pouk(i think its pouk.. im not sure. haha) but it was really cosy.. real nice for hanging out..and slacking and.. in short a simple life.

I thought i had missed that place for its people and place.. but the more i ponder over the reason why i had missed the place so much might not entirely lie with those 2 reasons, and i realised that assimilation with the place wouldn't have been so successful without the team... and in short, yes.. i miss their company as well.. as absurb as it may sound.. but we've been through 10 days of journey together.. with stories and jokes we share and that only we know..

Yes.. i feel lonely.. after being so used to the team's company.. so much so its disturbing. but then again i'm having driving lessons this month and hopefully that'll take my mind off the being lonely feeling ^^ - yeah.. 5 sessions 9th lesson

<3 2:18 AM