Sunday, August 26, 2007
As long as your happy^^ ..
looks like promotional exams are coming again..
not that it comes very often.. usually only once..
but i had the 'privilledge' of course to be able to take it twice
hopefully everyone would go up espacially you..
since you;ve not been doing very well throughtout the year
hmm would end here.. =D
<3 7:26 PM
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
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Today.. a friend asked me something.. about some stuff, and after a talk with her.. i realised that i wasn't feeling what i think.. i kinda feel devoided.. emptied... i really dont know how her question would make me realise so much..
It has been what? a year? i dont know.. somehow i think i screwed things up.. with myself and others.. what am i to do... today's a rainy day.. the light is flickering at the other end.. yesterday is just a memory? tomorrow is not always a better day.. its torturing .. but its true.. just how and i scoring? am i doing it the right way? dejcted? fallen? no.. its no longer about my mum... that was not a permanent thing..
i am what i am now.. will i still be him again? yesterday's me is dead.. tomorrow's me is far from born.. just what can i do... do i really have to share fate with bert?
cuz you were there.. why do you have to be.. i fell .. i really did fell.. it was all done and said... floors a bloody mess..
<3 11:53 PM
Sunday, August 19, 2007
Yes! i've been studying quite a little..I'm actually feeling the pressure now..Sure headaches on tough questions..I went crazy on a few occasions..Fell into the abyss of helplessness..For hours on end...You leave me at my wits end..
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Should i be to quiet..Have no worries..I might be a little serious..Response might be a little short..Likely due stress..Everything should be alright..Yesteryears lost ..Years wasted..
Even though its not obvious..
Only few would know..
<3 9:07 PM
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
I think its been a month since my parents were away..
think they're probably gonna come back soon..
.I'm not really sure if they miss singapore..
falling too deep into their work? maybe? maybe not.. .For i think i miss them cuz they were away so often..
you people dont have to worry much for me now i guess..
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Seriously... i just think i missed them out if a sudden...
have they forgotten me?
i really dont know..
reasons for staying there..
letting me be alone at home..
even for a month or two..
yes.. i should understand...
yes.. i should have know..
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Evenings should always be like this..
only someone like me would know..
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im sorry i worried all of you.. though i should have been used to it already.. i sometimes still feel the need to see my parents.. talk to them.. and yes. yearn to spend time with them.. and i really appreciate what youve done.. thanks 114!
<3 8:54 PM