Wednesday, August 22, 2007
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Today.. a friend asked me something.. about some stuff, and after a talk with her.. i realised that i wasn't feeling what i think.. i kinda feel devoided.. emptied... i really dont know how her question would make me realise so much..
It has been what? a year? i dont know.. somehow i think i screwed things up.. with myself and others.. what am i to do... today's a rainy day.. the light is flickering at the other end.. yesterday is just a memory? tomorrow is not always a better day.. its torturing .. but its true.. just how and i scoring? am i doing it the right way? dejcted? fallen? no.. its no longer about my mum... that was not a permanent thing..
i am what i am now.. will i still be him again? yesterday's me is dead.. tomorrow's me is far from born.. just what can i do... do i really have to share fate with bert?
cuz you were there.. why do you have to be.. i fell .. i really did fell.. it was all done and said... floors a bloody mess..
<3 11:53 PM